Ned found their youngest
daughter on the ground, legs sprawled in front of her. Her knee looked awful,
bloody and gravel-specked. Her blue eyes were full and miserable.
"Daddy," she wailed.
"It doesn't hurt," he
told her, voice steady and calm.
She furrowed her brow doubtfully
at him. You're crazy, said the set of her mouth.
He scooped her up and she put
her head against his chest. She sniffled and the sound of Nancy's voice led him
to the kitchen, and he put her down on the counter and watched as his wife made
her voice bright and assured and deftly rolled up Katie's pants leg, kept up a
steady stream of nonsense while she dabbed at the still-bleeding knee with a
washcloth, went over it with alcohol, plastered it over with a band-aid and a
kiss. By the time she was finished, Katie's cheeks had the muted sheen of dried
tears, and she flung herself off the counter none the worse for wear, eager to
rejoin her siblings.
"Have to throw away those
jeans," Nancy said, half to herself. She had her palms flat on the counter
to keep them from shaking, as she watched Katie launch herself into the
backyard, red-gold hair flying.
"Like you haven't fixed up
dozens of scraped knees."
"She's my baby," Nancy
replied, rinsing the blood and bits of gravel out of the washcloth. "I
can't help it."
Ned slid his arms around her
from behind, resting his chin on the crown of her head. "And she looks
just like you did, I bet."
"Almost," Nancy
admitted. She smiled, then. "When I was her age, Hannah says, I climbed
everything in sight. One summer she went through five boxes of band-aids and
God knows how much alcohol. I fell out of trees and treehouses and skinned my
palms on ropes and bashed my knees open when I lost my balance on my bike, but
there was no way I would ever just stay inside. Safe," she said, softer.
He kissed her hair. "Sounds
just like you."
She turned around in his arms,
laid her head against his shoulder, and he remembered other evenings, the
weight of her in his arms, the press of her mouth against his, in the few
precious minutes they could steal for themselves. They hadn't been alone,
really alone, in years.
"What am I supposed to do
the day she tells me she wants to be a detective," Nancy sighed.
"Or a cop," Ned added.
"Or even the day she tells
me she's going to college," Nancy said, and buried her face in his shirt.
"God," she groaned, breath hot through the fabric, and his hips
pressed hers against the sink.
She pulled back, gazing up at
him, faintest suggestion in her eyes. He studied her for a moment, then shook
his head, leaning down to brush his lips against her ear, her fists pulling his
shirt taut against his back. "They can hear us kissing from the other side
of the house," he reminded her, fingers trailing down the nape of her
neck. "All you have to do is touch my zipper and they'll materialize, asking
if they can build a rocket out of papier mache and the lawn mower."
She sighed in acknowledgement,
gently dragging her nails across his shoulder blades, his spine, so that he
surged suddenly against her.
"What about the first day
she goes to school?" He caught her earlobe lightly in his teeth.
"Hana and Lena got through it."
"But they had each
other." She was arching, on her tiptoes, her hips shifting subtly against
his. "All she wants is to be like them."
And he saw her, that little
motherless girl, doing everything she could to please her father, to be like
him, to climb and explore until her knees were raw and her palms burned,
reckless because loneliness afforded little other privilege.
His wife had her head tilted
back below his, gaze half-lidded as it met his own, lips slightly parted.
Then a softball thunked against
the side of the house.
"Next one'll hit a
window," she said, dreamily.
"Told you," he said,
awash in disappointment, but before he left, to sweep up his sunburned glove
and head out into the sharp green of their yard, he kissed his wife so hard
that before it was over she had her legs wrapped around his waist, her fingers
in his hair, her breasts full and tight against his chest.
"She's strong like
you," he told her, stepping back carefully, and ran his finger down her
jaw, her lips crushed red from his kiss. "She'll be all right."
Nancy left the band-aids out
anyway.