"Ned..."
He had been staring at his
screensaver. It wasn't particularly interesting, just a set of frighteningly
neon self-propagating pipes, but he had been staring at it anyway.
The city was beautiful this time
of night, all amber streetlights and gleaming windows, but Ned couldn't spare
the time to go look. He had his shoes off, but was still wearing the black
socks, and he looked down at them with a sudden irrational burst of anger.
"Be right there."
Lynn had her hair pulled back and
a pencil tucked behind her ear and her shoes off, which wasn't fair. He stared
at her legs, trying to figure out if she was wearing pantyhose or not, and then
asked himself why it mattered.
"Okay. So. If you were a
Japanese businessman, what would you want to see in this presentation?"
Paul lifted his latest cup of
coffee, the strongest batch they'd made yet, and announced, "Big-eyed
cartoon girls."
"Thanks," Kent replied.
"Yeah. Cause I'm sure I could find some clipart of that right now."
"You'd be surprised."
Paul gave a mock toast.
"Yes, thanks," Ned said
wearily, slumping at the conference table. "Because these pipes weren't
giving me enough nightmares."
"Come on. We have to get this
done."
Ned looked over his shoulder at
Miller's door. The door was closed, the light was off, the blinds pulled. All
around them were the blank dark faces of monitors. Kent's tie was off, his
collar unbuttoned, his cuffs rolled up to his forearms. Lynn had brought a
small tinny radio from her desk, in the outer half of the corner office, and
now it was tuned to the local college rock station, and all of it was combining
to make Ned feel, unanimously, one thing.
He wanted to be wherever Nancy
was.
"What else can we do?"
He could see the rectangles on the
screen, white boxes, trimmed and numbered, displayed on the opposite white
wall. A forty-five minute presentation, followed by tours and handshakes and
steak dinner and then commission checks and leather and a closer parking spot.
"More options?"
"I think that would make us
look less than confident."
"Well, at least it's better
than big-eyed Asian cartoons."
"Oh, come on."
Kent. Ned rubbed his socks
together under the table. He'd heard Bess giggling in the background, and Kent
looked none the worse for wear. He was keeping his distance from Lynn, though,
which was good.
It wasn't fair. The presentation
still wasn't for a few days, but here they were, hopped up on coffee, laughing
at each other, when he could be at Nancy's apartment. Or back at his. Which was
better, whenever he imagined it, because his apartment meant lots of making
out, uninterrupted making out, and beer, and the knowledge that his bedroom was
just one more shot, one more glass of wine away.
"I need some air."
His shoes felt clumsy and tight,
unfamiliar, on his feet, as the elevator doors closed before him. He punched
the button for the uppermost floor with his knuckle and weighed his cell phone
in his palm. He was going to lose it soon, they were all going to lose it soon,
blank boxes for a damn PowerPoint presentation.
No cars on the roads, not really,
not this late. He could hear the distant swish of them driving by, but it was
all disconnected. His head was light on his shoulders and she was number three
on speed dial, and only after the first ring did he think to wonder if she was
even still awake.
"What are you doing?"
He imagined her stretching, her
face half buried in the pillow, her hair falling in her eyes, and smiled.
"Wishing you were here," he said quietly. "Or that I was
there."
Nancy chuckled. "You don't
want to be here," she told him. "We split a bottle of wine between
the three of us and listened to Bess try to convince herself that Kent isn't a
bad guy."
"And had more pillow fights,
I hope."
"Yes," Nancy said, all
mock seriousness. "We put on these little pink frilly nighties and smacked
each other with pillows until we were all so tired that we fell on top of each
other on the floor."
He paused for a second too long
and she burst into uproarious laughter. "I don't even have to try with
you, you know that?"
"You should still try
anyway," he said, shaking his head. "Do you even own a little pink
frilly nightie?"
"And why would I ruin the
mystery for you, like that?"
Ned rubbed his palm over his
forehead. "Because I've been awake for twenty hours straight and all I've
been hearing about the last few hours is Asian cartoon teenagers and how this
is the single best thing, the single biggest account, and..."
"Yeah," she murmured,
when he trailed off. "I can imagine."
"It's never like this, at
your job, is it."
She laughed, and he heard, or
imagined, the bedsprings creaking when she shifted. "It's...
different," she said. "And I think that's all I can say on an
unsecured line."
"I really wish we'd been able
to go out tonight."
"Because anything's better
than a work presentation," she teased him.
"Because I love the light in
your eyes after your second daiquiri." He rested his forearms against the
railing and stared out across the rooftops, into the starless night.
"George was right, you are
just trying to get me drunk."
"I love it more when you're
stone sober and you're just knocking on my door and you can't keep yourself
from smiling at me, no matter how hard you try."
"And you never try to stop
yourself, do you."
"Nope," he said, his
smile in his voice. "Because I'm giving this a chance. And I didn't
know... I didn't know that you would become such a huge part of my life."
"You say it like it's a bad
thing," she murmured, but her voice was still light.
"There wasn't much else in it
to begin with," he admitted, his voice just louder than the wind. "I
want to get away from this. I want us to go skydiving."
"Tonight?"
"Yes, tonight," he
teased her. "Actually, from here it would be more base jumping."
"I would call your bluff,
Nickerson..."
"Too tired?"
Now the smile was in her voice.
"Too afraid that you'd take me up on it," she murmured. "I would
talk to you all night, but I want to hear from you again, and I think that
means telling you to go back to work, and finish whatever it is that you're
doing, making a slide show of Asian teenagers and stock projections..."
"If we keep at it much
longer, I'm sure that's what it will end up looking like," he chuckled.
"Okay, I know where I'm not wanted. I'll tell you good night, and get back
to it, like the good little money manager you deem to date."
"Good night," she
chuckled. "And... you are wanted. You know that, right?"
He was glad for the breeze, then,
against his warmed face. "Sometimes," he said softly. "Good
night."
Kent had another cup of coffee
ready for him when Ned came back, and they all looked up from the conference
table with matching, somewhat silly smiles. "Good?" Kent asked, but
the expression on his face asked an entirely different question.
"I think," Ned replied. "For now."