"What have I gotten
into?"
"Come on," Nancy tugged
on Ned's arm. "They're gonna close soon."
"And why do you suddenly have
an overwhelming desire to buy some overpriced souvenirs?"
She stopped, on the street, right
in front of a bodega, and hooked her finger under the hem of her dress, pulled
it away from her legs. "This? Is all I've got with me. And it's a little
bit much to wear on the plane back to Chicago."
"Oh, I don't know, I think it
looks good."
She laughed at the carefully
innocent look on his face. "You would."
She had gone along easily enough
with him, to the tiny restaurant nestled between incomprehensible signs in
sharp angular print and faded striped awnings, once she had assured him that she
was finished for the night, that she wouldn't get in trouble for staying over
with him. He'd opted out of offering to split some sort of outrageously
decadent dessert with her, because she would have expected it. Instead, he
waited until she protested that she was stuffed, then finished hers off.
He didn't know what she said to
the unsmiling owner standing just inside the bodega, but a minute later she was
inside, browsing through plastic racks of garish tourist shirts. He flipped
through postcards and keychains, keeping her at the edge of his sight, and in
just under five minutes she was standing at the counter, a bright smile on her
face, a pair of black sweatpants with "NY Angel" printed over the hip
and a white I Love NY t-shirt under her hands.
Ned walked over with two shot
glasses in his hand, and the cashier rang it all up, expressionless. Ned
slipped a bill over the counter, and Nancy walked out onto the street again,
heels clicking on the sidewalk, the thin plastic bag swinging from her wrist.
"Thanks."
He shrugged, smiling when she
laced her fingers through his. "I don't think that was our final
destination, was it."
She shook her head. "But you
said you trusted me, so."
"Do I have much choice?"
he laughed. "I can't seem to say no to you."
She grinned. "Good."
Three blocks later, she led him
into the mouth of a dark alley, the kind of place where he half-expected to see
prostitutes waiting. She swung her hips to avoid a trash can, still leading him
by the hand, and then pushed open a door he could barely see in the darkness.
He followed her inside without
hesitation.
The club was smoky and dim, the
floors spread with once-rich, now shabby carpets, everything in dusky red,
matte gold, black. She exchanged a half-hug with the bouncer at the door, who
nodded Ned in only because Nancy's fingers were laced tight around his. From
the other room he could hear the muted shrill blast of trumpets and trombones,
the bass drum pounding in the floor. Then she swept through a beaded curtain,
which fell soft against his shoulders, and they were in.
He had never seen anything like
it. The ubiquitous bar was in the back corner, but the low close stage barely
held the four musicians and their instruments. The floor before the stage had
been worn dull with the press of a thousand feet, and Nancy, who had dropped
his hand to hurriedly pin her hair up again, fit right in with the rest of the
girls. Their faces glowed in the light, their hair shining and curled close to
their faces, their skirts falling just above their knees, their long thin arms
bare. He hadn't seen her put on the bright lipstick, but her teeth gleamed when
she grinned at him, her eyes sparkling. A thin strata of smoke twirled around
their necks. His foot was already tapping in time.
"Dance?"
"Buy me a drink first."
The tables were all crowded around
to the walls. One overexuberant couple almost jostled his elbow, but he
recovered the drinks in time, smiling at their wordless apology. Nancy had her
chin propped in her hand when he placed the Manhattan in front of her.
"I thought it was
appropriate."
"Thanks." She nodded at
his. "Good thing we go everywhere in cabs."
He raised his glass, then drained
it, catching the cherry at the bottom on his tongue. She tilted her head back
and drank hers quickly, and he caught the faint reflexive spasm on her face
before she smiled.
"Now we dance."
Swing had just been coming back
into fashion the year he'd graduated college, and his girlfriend at the time
had dragged him to her sorority house's jazz night, so when Nancy started
swinging her hips, the hem of her dress rippling over her knees, he knew what
to do. She was athletic, but incredibly graceful, and so light in his arms that
when he slipped his hands under her arms and lifted her over his head, their
movements were sure and easy. The brass gleamed on the stage, the loud whine of
the trumpet, the trombone, the sax, the players' puffed cheeks and dancing
fingers and sleeves rolled up to reveal glistening forearms, and every time his
fingers touched hers, her waist, her arm, the euphoria he felt in her presence
grew just a little bit more.
"Is there anything you can't
do?"
She twirled away from him, and the
rose in her hair was bright under the dim lights, the fringed low lamps on the
tables. "I don't know," she confessed, when they were close enough to
speak again, over the squeal of the horns. "There are a few things I've
never tried."
"Really."
"Don't get your hopes up,
Nickerson," she laughed, as he swung her.
They took a break when the band did,
and he ordered waters with their next round. She drank half of hers before she
tossed back another Manhattan. "You know," she said, regarding him
with her eyes half-lidded, her arm resting along the length of the table with
her pale forearm up, "you're really good out there."
He smiled and covered it by taking
a sip of his drink. "You weren't half bad yourself."
She opened and closed her fingers
and he rested his hand, palm-down, against hers, and it might have been the
look in her eyes or his third drink or the sweet bite of the cigar smoke, but
he felt that he had never touched anyone more intimately. She met his gaze and
didn't move her hand away, and he was speechless.
Then, in the shadows behind the
stage, another curtain pulled back, and he saw why it had seemed so small
before. The piano swallowed the floor space effortlessly, all in gleaming
black, and a young man who seemed to be all legs and arms unpacked a bass and
set it up beside, always keeping his eyes low and hidden in the shadow under
the brim of his hat. The crowd's murmur swelled, and when Ned glanced around he
saw every face in the room turned in breathless expectation to the stage,
cigarettes smoking motionless from between long thin fingers, hair swept back
from gleaming foreheads, the length of smooth legs under the bare low tables.
"How do you know about this
place?"
Her fingertip moved against his
palm, and his mouth went dry. She shrugged and the white rose shifted in the
bed of her red-gold curls. "Just something I picked up," she said,
her voice low and rich. "I've known about it for a long time, but I have
to say, I've never danced with a guy who was as good as you were out there. And
I've danced with a lot of guys."
He linked his fingers around her
slender wrist, and her fingers curled up to rest against the heel of his hand,
and he held her gaze. "A lot of guys, huh."
She blushed faintly. "Not
every guy," she murmured.
A man walked on stage carrying a
silver trumpet loose in his right hand, and as the piano began, soft and slow,
Nancy raised her eyebrow to Ned. He rose with the rest of the couples and held
out his hand, ready to lead her out onto the floor. She kicked her shoes off
first and left them under the table, gliding on the balls of her feet to join
him.
"You must really trust
me."
"You've proven
yourself," she shrugged, and he watched the slow sweep of her hips as she
danced close to him, wrapping her arm up and under his to rest her hand against
his left shoulder, her cheek resting against his right. He held his right palm
lightly against the small of her back, barely breathing as they began to move
together.
He closed his eyes and she was
warm and he could almost feel her breathing against his breastbone. Their feet
shuffled slow together, in a tight circle, as the saxophone joined the piano
and bass, and his fingertips traced just over the tangle of curls pinned up at
the back of her head. She nestled into his shoulder and her lips brushed the
skin just above the button at his collar and his heart stopped for a second.
He had resigned himself to never
feeling this way, but here, away from his life and hers, this entire stolen
evening had almost made him feel that he had been premature. He opened his eyes
slowly, and she was so close to him, the line of her cheeks gleaming. He lifted
his hand and stroked it down the line of her spine, against the thin warmth of
the silk, and under the soft wail of the sax he heard her make a small noise,
and draw ever so slightly toward him.
"If they keep playing like
this much longer..."
She tilted her head back, her eyes
opening lazily, and they were too close, far too close. "Then what?"
His gaze dropped to her lips, and
he could feel himself tilting his face toward her. Hell, oh hell...
The sax dropped out, the trumpet,
the piano, leaving only the low mournful sound of the bass. He took a long
breath and then the music began again, a riotous sound, rising to shrill joy,
and he shook his head.
"Mind if we sit this one
out?"
She shook her head, and her
fingers trailed down the back of his shoulder, to his elbow, to his hand before
they walked back to the table together. He signaled the waitress, who wore her
hair in a short jet-black bob paired with heavily black eyelashes, and she
brought over another pair of martinis.
"What were you going to say
earlier?"
He tossed his drink back, catching
the cherry on his tongue again. "Nothing," he managed. She reached
for her own drink, wrapping her fingers just under the bowl, and her dress's
thin strap slid down her shoulder. She hooked her fingers around it and drew it
back up and he couldn't stop watching it, her skin was so smooth and perfect
and he loved her then, briefly, intently, and it left him speechless.
"No, really."
Her cherry was still resting in
the pool of amber liquid at the bottom of her glass. She curved her fingers
down to grab it, and he could see her tongue when she dropped it into her
mouth.
I'm drunk. I have to be drunk.
I've never been this drunk so easily in my life. And I'm going to ruin this by
saying something stupid.
"I was thinking that this
would be a great night, if I didn't have to get up early in the morning and
finish the deal."
She picked up her glass and
swirled it so that the liquid gleamed. "It hasn't been a great
night?"
She turned her gaze on him from
under lowered lashes, and he smiled. "I guess I just don't want it to
end."
She returned his smile. "Me
either," she sighed. "But maybe we can get one more dance in."
He dipped his head in agreement.
She slipped her shoes back on, and
she was invulnerable and perfect and incredibly lovely, but he missed the
vulnerability and the feel of her palm against his shoulder blade. They danced,
breathless, swirling around each other, their gazes almost always locked, and
when the trumpet finished with one final blare the crowd gathered around them
clapped. He hadn't even noticed that they were alone in the corona until that
moment.
"Well, we can't top
that," he laughed, breathless.
She grinned at him, her cheeks
flushed, the rose falling from her hair, and he reached up to touch it.
"You sure?"
"No," he admitted.
Once they headed out of the club,
and Ned noticed with some amusement that she hugged the bouncer again on the
way out, they found a taxi and directed it back to his hotel. She dug through
the plastic bag and pulled out one of the shot glasses.
"You collect these?"
He shook his head. "Already
have some. I just... felt like having something."
"Two shot glasses?"
"Well, one was for you, but
if you don't want it..."
She punched his arm lightly.
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For putting up with me. And
being such an excellent dance partner."
He gave her a solemn mock bow.
"Anytime."
They stumbled into the hotel lobby
together, laughing, and she was just approaching the front desk when he looped
his arm through hers.
"What are you doing?"
She nodded at the desk and the
sleepy clerk behind it. "Getting a room?"
"Why?"
She rolled her eyes. "I
thought we were back here so you could get some sleep...?"
"Sure we are, but... why
don't you just stay in my room tonight?"
She snorted. "Oh, come on,
Ned..."
"No, not like that." He
shook his head. "I mean... my room's already paid for, it has two beds,
why bother paying for another one when we're just going to sleep... I swear to
you, I'm not gonna try anything. Besides, if I did, I'm convinced that you'd be
able to kick my ass without even trying."
She laughed. "Probably,"
she admitted. Her fist clenched the plastic bag between her fingers. "And
you mean it. Straight to sleep."
He raised his hand and held three
fingers together, in a scout's-honor gesture. "Straight to sleep."
She sighed, but the corners of her
mouth were twitching. "Oh, all right. I didn't know that you invited girls
to bed on the first date."
"What can I say," he
said, pressing the button to summon the elevator. "You're just
special."
Back in his room, she sat down on
the bed furthest from the door and slipped out of her shoes, while he vanished
into the bathroom with his heart pounding in his ears. He brushed his teeth and
changed into sweatpants, and walked out with his chest bare. The color rose in
her cheeks when she saw him.
"Um. You don't have a clean
shirt I could wear to bed, do you."
"Sure," he said hastily,
digging through his suitcase. He tossed her a plain white pocketed t-shirt, and
watched her slide the pins out of her hair, lay the rose carefully on her side
of the nightstand. He picked up the phone and made arrangements for his wake-up
call, looking carefully away from her, but when he turned back she still sat on
the edge of the bed, in her dress, bare legs dangling over the side.
"I didn't do this to... oh,
hell," he muttered. "If you're uncomfortable, I'll go downstairs
right now and get you another room. I know you weren't planning on staying
over, anyway..."
She shook her head. "No, it's
all right," she said softly. "I'll need to borrow a little bit of
your toothpaste, but... yeah. I'll be right back."
The room was too quiet, after she
vanished into the bathroom. He touched the remote, but didn't turn the
television on. The last time he'd shared a hotel room with a girl, he'd been a
junior in college and it had been spring break, and there had been eleven other
people in the room, in sleeping bags or curled up tight in uncomfortable
armchairs, grabbing a few hours of sleep before they went out to the beach
again. Before that, it had been a prom night, an awkward and utterly
forgettable evening. He couldn't even remember the color of her dress or the
name of the hotel.
She walked out still in her dress,
licking her teeth. She went immediately to the drapes and pulled them tight,
then to the door.
"You mind if I go ahead and
turn out the lights?"
He shook his head, and a minute
later he was blindly listening for the creak in the other bed. She scrambled
under the covers and he heard her moving against the stiff sheets. "Would
it offend you too much if I said this reminded me of the sleepovers I used to
have with Bess and George when we were little?"
"And what did those
involve?" He laced his fingers behind his head, then laughed in surprise
when a pillow landed on his stomach. "What, you want to have a pillow
fight?"
"Please don't," she
replied, her voice just carrying over the rasping gurgle of the air conditioner
under the window. "No pillow fight. For tonight, we're going to pretend
like there's a twenty-mile gulf between us, and we're going to sleep.
Right?"
"Right," he replied. Even
if there was before tonight, there's not anymore. You can't fool me.
He scooped up the pillow and
tossed it back onto her bed, and she startled, and laughed. "Ned."
"What can I say," he
said, mock-innocent. "Guess I just have a good arm."
The bedsprings creaked as she
shifted. "Good night, Ned."
"Good night," he sighed.
"As long as you realize you still owe me a first date."
"What?" She clicked on
the lamp between them, and he looked at her in surprise, her hair hanging loose
around her face, the white sleeve of his shirt showing from beneath the covers.
"That wasn't a date?"
He propped his head up on his
elbow, facing her. "It was," he admitted. "And it was great. But
I didn't get to pick you up, or grab the check out of your hand and pay it, or
offer to split dessert for you, or..."
"Or what?" She sounded a
little amused.
"Or walk you to your door at
the end of the night when we've both had a little too much to drink..."
"And then after that we would
have done the awkward things? I would have asked you if you wanted coffee, you
would have come in knowing that Bess and George were on the other side of the
kitchen door listening to every word we were saying..."
He laughed. "Doesn't sound
quite as romantic, when you put it that way."
She smiled. "So it should be
romantic."
"I'd hope so."
Their gazes caught and held for a
long moment, before she seemed to come to herself again, and looked away, the
smile still on her face. "Then it will be. Good night, Ned."
"Good night, Nancy."
She clicked the lamp off, but it was still a long time before he could fall asleep.